I built this because no one talks about what comes after the helper's high.

All my life I have loved helping people. If you ask me what I want to do with my life, the answer is simple: help others.

But somewhere along the way, I became better at caring for others than I was at caring for myself. Throughout my life, I felt guilty for the moments when I wanted to be alone with myself quietly. It felt selfish to want something just for me, so I learned to keep it to myself.

Eventually I realized that constantly showing up for everyone else meant I had slowly stopped showing up for myself.

So I built the place I needed.

I didn't know then how personal this work was about to become. While creating AhavaSana, my mother was diagnosed with Guillain-Barré Syndrome, and my father became her primary caregiver almost overnight. I watched him live the exact thing I had built this platform to speak to, before I had even finished building it.

AhavaSana stopped being something I understood from the outside. I watched someone I love carry the weight of caring for someone we both love deeply.